Iām not sure thereās much more I can add that hasnāt already been said by so many liners. But, I enjoy reading your posts - so much so that DH asks me if Iām reading stuff from profmatt again. LOL Iām fairly quiet on here but check in every day to read posts and connect with everyone through their thoughts and ideas theyāve shared. Itās truly a highlight in my day and Iām thankful for everyone on this forum. Change your plans all you want but PLEASE donāt change a thing about yourselfā¦you are loved by many!
On a side note, Iām touched and impressed by your willingness to share with us your struggles with depressionā¦I know itās not easy. DD was diagnosed as bipolar several years ago and she had such a hard time accepting that about herself because she felt she was broken. It took many years and lots of love and support to get her to a safe and positive place in her life. I know much of that was because she could talk about her ups and downs without being judged or treated as if she were crazy. Having a solid circle of accepting friends/family is key to maintaining a healthy life and I hope you know that we are all here for youā¦anytime you need us.
Chin up buttercupā¦you only have 49 more days until your plans become your realityā¦and itās going to be the best time ever!!
{{{hugs}}} My DD also suffers from bipolar disorder. I am a very active mental health advocate because of it. Itās not an easy thing for a family to be burdened by, thatās for sure. Glad your DD is in a safe and positive place. I wish I could say the same about mine. She is probably more stable now than sheās ever been.
There are still struggles for sure but, she has made such great strides in the years following her diagnosis. Weāve always told her, itās like any illness, get checked regularly, take your meds and listen to your body. There seems to be some stigma that if itās mental illness, itās not the same as say, diabetes. That has been the area we have worked hardest to change for herā¦how she sees her illness and being accepting of what she has to do to stay healthy.
ANY time you need an ear to listen, Iām here. Sending you hugs and keeping your DD in my thoughts! 
@profmatt you are not an idiot! I actually think you are so alive, so open, so human. You have given me joy, you have made me think, and you have reaffirmed how delightfully fun yet challenging it is to plan disney vacations. BTW, I donāt normally check out the Forum as Iāve found it previously to be less dynamic and less fun than chat, but since you have joined, I find myself wanting to see what youāre up to and what you are currently contemplating. 
Iāve been doing just that. Iām loving Adam Hattan on youtube. Heās hilarious!!
@profmatt, I too enjoy your posts. I donāt change plans often, but thatās because we go a lot! If I miss something this trip, Iāll catch it next time. As I remember reading in the UG years ago, Disney World will always be there. Theyāre not going to move it to Iceland.
Last trip, we didnāt ride NRJ. Ok, weāll do it this time. I"m pretty sure we wonāt ride the two new TSL rides and TSMM on our next trip (I mean ride all three). Iāll try, but if I canāt get a FPP, it wonāt happen. DH and I hate to wait. The longest we waited was DD and I waited one hour for FEA. It was bearable, but I donāt want to wait that long.
And honestly, who wants to hear about your plan changes but us? Weāre a uniquely focused group, and luckily, we all have the same focus.
Nooooo. I lurk on here A TON. (I suppose I should post more!)I truly enjoy all your posts and your āshould I or shouldnāt Iā questions!
I think we ALL have these thoughts. Obsessed with Disney planning and OMG WHAT/WHERE/GAHHHH.
WDW is VERY overwhelming. I mean I took a recon trip in December to be prepared for the family trip in February. While I wanted a trip, I am so thankful I did it. It was worth the expense (which wasnāt bad actually!), and our trip in February, was flawless, even with my sister joining us at the LAST MINUTE. (Note: sparkly shoes and a smile will get a guest services CM to make some super amazing magic. They added my sis to ALL our FP plans and dining) But even still, I was stressed most of the trip, because I was the one āin chargeā of 6 other humans, two with sensory issues (one kid, the other my dad), my sister (who is just strange), my mother (who hates crowds and gets hangry like no one else I know), and my daughter who may or may not randomly pass out on us(she didnāt!).
Lurking on these forums, having a great TA and being prepared, it was priceless. I see your posts as my internal conversations with myself before our last trip!
This next one (we leave tonight), Iām more chill. Itās just DH and I, Iām not even fully packed, but we are gonna go with the flow and enjoy the first vacation weāve taken since our honeymoon (not counting one 3-day stint to Palm Springs, where we ended up having dinner with my parents and kids two nights).
Post away. I love every change, every question, it makes me not feel alone in my disney madness!!!
I change a lot too.
In fact, I just booked on Thursday for a September trip and there is already an email in my TAās box saying āLetās change that resort from POR to CSR - and yes, I know about the construction (I live in NYCā¦used to noise) and the pool closure (donāt do pools).ā So that should be done Monday. The one thing I KNOW is certain is MNSSHP on 9/9 since Iāve already bought my ticket. And brunch at BOATHOUSE with my friend who is planning to do MNSSHP with me. And my flights in and out - those will only change if the airline makes changes.
But I do get that humor and tone are very hard to convey over the internet (or any written word) because you canāt hear the voice and moreso you canāt see facial expressions.
You must have realised by now that you are well liked on this site, your posts make people smile and brighten their day. You should have more confidence and belief in yourself, hopefully your post has helped. Iām sorry to hear that you are depressed and have few friends, maybe itās time to make a couple of changes in your life? Sorry if thatās out of line, I donāt know what trauma you have experienced, but you seem like the type of bloke that can work out what is lacking from their life and do something to fix it. I have lots of friends, but I can think of numerous people who arenāt interested in being my friend, and most of the time itās nothing personal they are just busy and already have too many acquaintances. I hope you make more effort to meet people, donāt let the knock backs keep you from trying.