I’ve been here before. Several times, actually. Even before COVID, thanks to other health reasons. It’s a very dark place: the moment before canceling a trip I’ve been thinking about constantly for months.
I’ve planned the perfect trip (heard that before, right?), but alas, it is doomed. 1% chance we will go. I should have canceled it weeks ago, but I can’t bring myself to do it. I’m still tweaking my TPs and dropping everything (sometimes literally) to grab an ADR when I get a text from the Res Finder.
DW and I have been arguing about it for weeks. I want to go, she doesn’t. She wants to wait until she’s more comfortable traveling. I can’t blame her. We just have different risk tolerances. Maybe she will change her mind. Maybe this next week or two will be less stressful (we’ve had a few brutal ones leading into this week). But I think if I bring up Disney again she will shoot lasers out of her eyes and set my hair on fire. So probably no changed minds in this house…
Anyways, in a year full of grief, I’m now grieving again for yet another missed opportunity to visit “home”. Planning and fantasizing are my escape. But now that it is becoming more and more clear that it will stay a fantasy, I’m sad.
Maybe I will feel better after I cancel. I hope I do.
Anyways, sorry for the weird post. I do enjoy seeing everyone’s trip reports and reading all of the other stuff too, even though I’ve been more of a “lurker” since COVID. After canceling our April trip I pretty much checked out of the forum to preserve my sanity. But I think this time around I will stay to preserve my sanity. I miss home so much, I think I need this forum. Thank you everyone!