I find it really interesting how we are all built behaviorally. Reading through all of these posts on guilt, shaming, the questioning of safety and prudence and everything else that has come along with all of this is truly amazing. I fight through all of the same emotions of course as well. I think I am coming away though with two absolutes from this: 1) People will rationalize to whatever level they need to make things happen. Example: We have friends that will not let family see their kids or put them in any setting that could expose them to the pandemic. However, they just took their kids to Disney for an AP preview last week. I can name probably 50 of these examples including my own family (we took two HHI trips from May-June). The way we are built and the way we will rationalize whatever we can to get the right outcome is fascinating. 2) We should not be judging the actions of others. It does none of us any good to get up at arms about what people are choosing to do with regard to wearing their masks, travelling, etc… I have gotten caught up judging what others have done or are doing and I am realizing, my actions might not make any sense to them as well.
Bottom line: Your brain is going to let you make the decision you ultimately want to make. If that is whether to wear a mask outside or to avoid crowds, etc., you will rationalize a way to make it work. If that is from others and their examples, or soundboarding or just ignoring popular opinion. It will happen. So I say do what you want to do. Because you are anyway!