Well, I finally did it. I canceled our November backup to the October backup trip, which was a backup of the September backup of the May backup of the original April trip we had SO MUCH looked forward to. I am joyless.
My time on this forum has dwindled since June, and now I barely get on at all anymore. I feel such a strong “need” to go back to the Magic, but I don’t think I would feel satisfied going now anyways. Perhaps the problem is really that no trip will probably ever compare to my epic solo trip last January.
My kids are much more mature, and taller now than when we went in October on our first trip. DS5 is now tall enough to ride almost everything (and has become OBSESSED with Star Wars during quarantine), and DS4 is tall enough to ride Splash, FOP, etc. The whole experience would be different for DD2 (she was only 8mo when we went). Anyways, sorry for the rambling. I just needed to vent a bit. So sad that I canceled. Even though I knew it was an extremely low likelihood of us going, it still leaves a hole knowing it is canceled.
I will be on here periodically. I hope all of you are doing well. This community has been important to me since 2018 and I hope that I can return in full capacity at some point when COVID is not impacting my family’s daily life as much as it is now (DS4 is in high-risk category since he had cancer in his lungs 2 years ago, so we are keeping all the kids home while DW and I “try” to keep our full-time jobs).